me

2009-05-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

i'm done setting up my other account for hosting journals. and so, this will be my last entry!
(i think, since my last is always not the last. for instance, cafe cartel. -.- )

any last words? yes. i'll miss my dead tagboard pretty much. hahaha. and the long list of links, and the quite-long-but-not-short-at-all list of archives.

well thats all i have to say.

BYE! :D

2009-05-06T15:36:00.000+08:00

today isnt a very pleasant day for me. ioverslept imissed2busestoschoolbecauseitwastoopacked thetrainedexperiencedsomesortofcongession ibroughtmylaptopwhenitwasntnecessary markedisntthatnice(yet) ididnotknowshewasthatkindofperson.

heres whats thats nice. (: theynoticedthatiwasntmyself. thanks girls. (:

work later at cartel. time goes by really slow when there isn't much people for you to talk to.

i haven't been really nice at home lately. its the forces of circumstances.

2009-05-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

effing splitting headache. and why? because i'm so goddamn mad and disappointed.
and how come? hah. i'm not gonna publicise it here.

working tmr at cartel, and i found out that i'm not doing counter anymore. dang. but that helped me make up my mind on two timing andersens and cartel. HAHA. i'm sooooo ditching cartel! haha!

but the thing i dont like about andersens, is that they're effing unfair. and that there seems to be some kinda gap between some of them and me. hah.

k. i'm gonna go sleep already. i'll declare this blog dead when i'm really moving. hahaha. take care people. nites! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

2009-05-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

cool enough to stand strong.
strong enough to stand cool.

k i'm back from the last welfare event, steamboat gathering. i guess i messed up pretty much, and the proposal hasn't been approved (yet), and we went ahead with the event. thank you very much my dear OCs for making this event a successful one. :D i know i screwed up at some places, so i'm sorry i kinda gave some of you attitude. nevertheless, after one year, theres only one thing to say. CSCC WELFARE 0809 ZAI! :D

k i'm gonna go bathe already. interview tmr (or rather, later). heh.

ITS LABOUR DAY EH! i'm done with breaking dawn. book hunting tmr at harris suntec. dad says theres a clearance sale going on. and then off to work.

2009-04-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

i'm not gonna care anym.
i hope i mean it, and will do it, when i say it.
its an effing waste of mental energy.

OH COME ON CYNTHIA.
USE YOUR BRAINS AND LEARN LJ OR SOME OTHER HOSTS FOR JOURNALS.
HURRY UP AND GET MOVING MANNN!
DAMN IT.

studies, work, club, airport duty.
undeniably, they're taking a toll on me.
time management!

dang(!) look at the time now.
i shall go bathe, and do my tutorial, and then go sleep.
waking early to talk to momma tmr morning.
i hope she listens, as in really use her heart and listen.

ohya,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY STEVEN! :D

2009-04-29T01:15:00.001+08:00

caramello. ello.
i think thats quite a nice name. sounds like a hamster name! but i've got cream for my dear cream. haha.

had longjohn with shirley at msq just now. and i dont like the manager. the chilli sauce was weird, and i told him about it. and so, he gave me another 2 packets of chilli sauce. its kinda weird because if one is weird, all would be weird. and so i said "okay. but what about the fries, they're stained already." cos i squeezed the sauce on the side of the fries. and he gave me another portion. tsktsktsk. at least thats acceptable la. but i ate some of the sauce already. Lol.

then to the airport to actually buy free gst stuffs. but apparently, that didn apply to body shop, where i wanted to go. well nvm. at least i got what i wanted. :D

then then trained home.

i learnt of something today. and i'm gonna smack shirley's head the next time i say the same thing as her. HEH.

nites. i finally changed my nick. and my dp. whoo. :D

2009-04-27T23:26:00.001+08:00

a few more posts, and i'll be shifting.
i cant be hitting backspace all the time you know.

k, either that or i'm locking this blog. haha.

i need to talk to her again.
guess what i did, didn't feel right.

2009-04-27T22:19:00.001+08:00

sometimes you have to read more into things to defend yourself.
there wont be a need to share it.
its just to prepare you for the worst.
because its not as simple as it looks.

you'll only talk, when you think i'm over you.
eh?

i'm sick and tired of feeling this way all the time.
damn it.

2009-04-26T02:36:00.000+08:00

i did the longest working shift in my entire life today! ten to ten. i only found out that i was working that long yesterday. HAH.

work was okay today. the ups were really "up" and the downs were really "down". there was this uncle (with his family) and he taught me how to use those super big gigantic camera to take a photo, just because he wanted to take a photo of him and his family. and because i was in a good mood this afternoon, i kept smiling to almost anyone, and this customer said that i was v sweet. HAHAH. what a way to brighten up my day! :D

and then it was peak hour. and of course, my face changed. Lol. i had a moodswing. i shan't elaborate further. heh.

i had a sudden urge to grab my phone and dial your number just now. just to tell you that i think i was right in guessing certain things. in my mind, there are two extremes of you. anw, i've got things to tell you. but it wouldn't matter anymore, i guess. its always at this time of the night that i think things through. weird much.

working tmr again. i wanna have oatmeal for breakfast and dinner tmr. k random. ohya. i'm done with book two of twilight. i feel a strong sense of accomplishment eh, because i really dont like jacob. HAHA.

k bye. Lol.

2009-04-24T02:10:00.001+08:00

recce with welfare was fun just now! its kinda worth having the not-so-pleasant phone call with crystal yesterday. hahaha. I LOVE THE BIG FACE COLLECTION MAN. :D

i did/spoke/made a super unglam sound just now. just because meixian said the prawns are swimming in her stomach. (i'm still laughing while typing this. HAHAHA.) i wont let it happen next week eh! HAHAHA.

my greatest wish now is to have this event turn out right. its not v hard as an event, thats why. this proposal is going up tmr! :D

okay. i'm gng turn in now. quite some plans queued up for me tmr. (including work. gosh.) heh. Goodnight!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DERRICK! :D

2009-04-22T23:20:00.001+08:00

the only thing thats consistent in life is change.

convo with someone just now. and i realised that i changed in poly. for the good or bad, its up to others to decide. but i believe its good for me. hahaha.

i'm not the only one changing too. people around are. looks or contents, yeah they've changed.

and i talked to sis, like finally. and then he MIA from the convo. -.- and heres what he told me:

dont be sad cos its over, smile because it happened. :D

i didn get a chance to thank you, so, thanks eh sis. (:

pokerface, not.

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
哦　如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪　让它留在雨天
哦　越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

through my head, over and over again.

insignificantly significant.

2009-04-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

i dont like school.

i dont feel like working anywhere.

i just want another school vacation.

3 weeks, 4 weeks, i dont care.

i want a real break this time round.

but i know i wont get it.

i find it hard to face people who entertain you when you speak, when its so clear on their face with that fake smile that they're absolutely not interested and their body is dying to turn away the moment you stop talking. because of their body language, you dont know what to say next.

ohya. thanks shirley for offering to accompany me before welfare meeting yesterday afternoon! :D

i'm still struggling through book two of breaking dawn. i really dont like jacob. tsk.

it should be fading, but its not.

it shouldn't upset me, but it did.

deja vu.

2009-04-20T08:36:00.000+08:00

i finally slept my fill.

went to get my mc from work after reaching home from the event. then i bathed and slept all the way from 2pm till now. HAHA. because i didn really get a sleep at ecp.

anw, a fuhuanite spotted me at the social gathering. and i dont know who he is. tsktsktsk. so much for my 4 years in fuhua. =x

i got mistaken as a year 1 by a few people. then someone still thought that this freshie was so daring to bbq at the seniors pit. - . - ohyaaaaa, i need more frequency games! :B

i dislike people who dont get facts right and start throwing useless solutions at you and expect you to listen and try. they wont listen to why you wont consider their solutions too. if only i knew a word to term these people. tsk.

todays the 20th. school starts. at 3pm for me! theres welfare meeting later.

i'll keep them so that there'll be a reason to smile. (:

2009-04-18T11:11:00.000+08:00

okayyyyy. im just gonna do a quick update, and then do my stuffs, then chiong down to bedok already. i'm supposed to be there at 10.30am. Lol.

work was killer yest. we're understaffed, and its actually quite scary when an ice cream parlour is understaffed too. esp when customers are blind and cant see the "please wait to be seated" sign. we're not a fastfood restaurant for goodness sake. k, then we did closing till really late, and i had to run through citylink to hop onto the last train. hmmm, i guess theres a first for everything eh. haha.

anw, crystal happened to be in msq olast night, and she shouted my name and waved. how sweet for a cartel manager right! i was quite touched eh. if i wasn't busy then, i would have been smiling my night away.

OH ITS 11.11AM! heh.

okay, i'm gonna go do my stuffs already. :B

2009-04-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

work at cartel yesterday wasn't as fun as i thought. but i talked to crystal a lot, and i did some desserts! :D

"Cynthia ah, whats your favourite flavour there?"

"errr. i think cookies and cream. heee."

"there nice to work?"

"there quite nice to work. haha. why you never ask why i come back?"

"orh. ya hor. why ah?"

"because there not much people to talk to. and quite boring there."

i'm lucky to have peini and kenneth to sms during my shift. if not when there was nothing to do, i would be stoning, and wiping the db over and over again. hahaha.

and then something happened when i was outside cartel on the way back from buying food. HAHAHA. i told some of the staffs too. HEH. first time ehhhhh. LOL.

AND THEN i actually took the train home with guoliang but i didn know. cos he was sleeping, and then i found that guy familiar, but didn bother much. haha. and he spotted me when he alighted, and we actually talked with him outside the train, and me inside the train. -.-

OKAY. I KNOW MY LIFE IS BORING. 10 hours of work later again. at andersens. i guess that would be boring, too. damn. i've been saying that i feel like i'm 2 timing andersens and cartel. tsktsktsk. i cant really decide eh. Lol.

i dont feel going to work later. no. mood.

actually. i dont feel like going anywhere.

2009-04-16T16:15:00.000+08:00

that special song drives the adrenaline in my blood.
but it'll be insignificant to you.

2009-04-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

out with peini again yesterday!

the place that we're exploring is actually arab street. it wasnt as interesting as i thought. then we walked a little in bugis street, then we sat outside starbucks to eat our chocolate flavour burst and talk. IM NOT A FIERCE PERSON FOR GOODNESS SAKE. HAHAHA. and i know that somebody does not has zi nue zheng okayyyyy. but anw, we had a really good laugh. :D

then we went cartel for HAPPY HOUR. thats what they call their new promotion. 50% off snackers, iced &hot coffees, and frappes. CAPUCCINO FREEZE IS VVVVV NICE. i shld have got my morning bar to make it for me last time la. :(

then we had cake again. and then we waited for brian to knock off. SEEMS LIKE WE'RE FETCHING HIM FROM WORK LA. HAHA. ohya, another thing to laugh. somebody at cartel very HOT HOT HOT la hor. HAHA.

i'm working tonight at cartel. WHOO. but the fun people not around leh. tsk. i wanna do desserts, freestyle! hahaha!

im gng meet yy later. SO LONG NEVER SEE HER ALREADY. Lol.

andersens tmr again. hmmm.

2009-04-15T12:41:00.000+08:00

OUT WITH PEINI YESTERDAY!

we caught the handsome suit, which is quite nice, and it had an unexpected ending. and then we headed down to andersens to have fondue! HEH. got staff discount lehhhhh. :B talked many many many there, then we left.

then we went to cartel j8 (to have the half priced cakes. :B). OMG. i cant express how much i miss the place in words. seriously. i was all smiles and laughter when i was there. i saw haitang, brian, kelvin and yanjun. long long long time never see them man. esp brian ah. tsk. he wasnt around on my "last day". and i quite long never do counter with him already. HAHHA. anw, i think i'm gng back to cartel to work, when i'm free. like i said, working at cartel is more fun than working at andersens. heh.

out with peini later again. to some place that we dont even know how to go. HAHA. then at night, we'll be going to cartel again! :D

i finally did what i wanted to do. but. hahaha. i shall be happy with everything now. at least i had a good sleep last night, which i did not for a long time. take care eh. (:

2009-04-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

out with some dac09 people yesterday! namely mandy natalie shi'en shirley wangjun edmund and linlong. heh.

it was the first time i played pool.
it was the first time i went to a kbox. (thats not in school)
it was the first time i sang at a kbox.

SO MANY FIRST TIMES EH. i didn sing much, but overall, it was quite fun catching up with them. esp the zhong ji mi ma at sakae. I WAS WAITING FOR MY TURN TO HIT THE NUMBER LA. because i wanna set the number. and of course i know when i ZHONG, i gotta eat sushi with some wasabi, which i dont really like. hahaha.

ohya. i sucked a lot at pool. HAHA. but theres once i hit the white ball, it jumped, then hit another ball, and that other ball got in! HAHAHA. and many thanks to the people who played pool with me for being so extremely patient with me. hehehe.

OUT WITH PEINI LATERRRRR. WHOO. fondue fondue fondue. YUM.

& the feeling comes and goes. i guess it has become a habit already.
well, i'm living my life like it would be, before us.

the perfect imperfection.

2009-04-13T13:30:00.000+08:00

i think i'm a total klutz. i burnt my hand around 3 times yesterday with the coffee machine. there was a blister on my finger last night, but its gone now. heh. and i'm super duper slowwwww, in all ways.

i lost my oomph to read breaking dawn. because i dont like jacob, and im suppose to the book two of breaking dawn. tsk. i wish i could've read the story in bella's perspective. hahaha.

sakae with dac09 later.

i wanna rewatch twilight! HEH!

i'm looking forward to tmr too! WHOO!

2009-04-12T01:58:00.000+08:00

HEYYO! i finished my eclipse and i'm at breaking dawn now! HEH! what an accomplishment eh. :B

work these few days, ummm, was rather plain, dry, dull, lifeless, and you can insert whatever similar words here. out of place. thats the best phrase that can describe how i'm feeling there. i keep comparing things here to things at cartel before. although i earn with lesser effort, i'm not really enjoying it, to the extent that my colleague asked why i looked so sian today.

work at cartel is rather freestyle in the counter, esp the db. because no one really cared anymore. and that made it a whole lot more fun. HAH. but here, the steps/processes/system/management is kinda rigid. not much room for flexibility, at least thats what i feel till now.

and because 30% of the customers are foreigners, i can easily identify singaporeans. typical singaporeans. typical singaporeans who behave as customers. and i'm not referring to polite customers. it upsets me to see this. and frightens me to think that i may become like them in future, just because i'm a singaporean.

and lastly, i miss work at cartel, because there'll never be nothing to do. maybe only 3% of the time. the things to do would include talking to friends, and counting the receipts and trying my best to top up the db to the person doing cashier the next shift (if the cashier is someone nice. heh.) and blahblah. i lost the oomph to work already. i lost the feeling of looking forward to work everyday. man, i'm feeling so nostalgic now.

the only thing thats good at work, is that theres nice food to eat everyday. i get to steal a bite or two every shift. not really steal. they asked me to eat. THINKING ABOUT FOOD IS NOT A CRIME! HAH. i help myself to a marshmallow or a cookie when no one is looking, because of i thought too much about food. heh.

so much about work. anw, my schedule changed, and i have 4 off days next week. including thursday. heh. plenty of catch-ups next week. yayness eh. :D

OKAY. let me talk about other things a bit before i end this post. I HAVEN BEEN TALKING TO SIS LA. he's not online when i am. Lol. and no more random calls already. it used to be the case whereby he'd call to ask me about tutorials, then we'd sidetrack a bit, and then we'd decide to give up the entire tutorial, and then we'd talk many many. HAHHA.

OKAY. this is the end of this post. Lol.

2009-04-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna spend my off days like that. so no life please. hahaha.

i still cant get the sop right for the desserts. the only thing that i do right is the couple fondue, and the 5 scoops, and of cos the single scoops. anw, I MADE 2 LATTES AND A HOT CHOCOLATE YESTERDAY. (but i think cartel's latte would taste better, and their hot chocolate too. heh.) maybe i'll try out cafe mocha today. :B hehehe.

after my journey home yesterday after work, i now know what kind of guy i seriously cannot stand. Peini knows too. i think karma will strike me soon. hor? hahaha.

double pay on friday! WHEEEEE! :DDDDD

to dream about a life, where you're the shining star.

my heart melts along with niceeeee songs. :D

2009-04-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

oh man i feel like crying. not because of him, but because of them, esp P. its so touching to know that someone cares for you when you dont contact each other for days. and i'm sorry for the delay in letting you know my schedule. :x

here it is
mon (6th april) : 4pm to 10pm
tues (7th april): 4pm to 10pm
wed (8th april): OFF!
thurs (9th april): 10am to 4pm
fri (10th april): 4pm to 10pm
sat (11th april): 4pm to 10pm
sun (12th april): 4pm to 10pm
mon (13th april): OFF! ( dac09 girls!)
tues (14th april): OFF!
wed (15th april): OFF! (bestie!)
thurs (16th april): 4pm to 10pm
fri (17th april): 4pm to 10pm
sat (18th april): 4pm to 10pm
sun (19th april): 4pm to 10pm

okay. i'll try my best to change the shifts for the last few days. i promise. cos i know its kinda important. Lol. and school reopening on the 20th.

anw, I FINISHED NEW MOON ALREADY. i'm so gng down to Popular, the budget bookshop, later to get ECLIPSE! then i'll start reading on my way to work. muahahaha. :B i called it budget because, they have promotions so much! you can get the same book at kinokuniya, and its around $3 more ex. hahaha. but anw, i need to travel a little bit more to kinokuniya, so i'm actually just pure lazy. hoho.

i'm learning the counter stuffs already. it seems like a replay of things at cartel when joanna just taught me how to do desserts. i try my best to see how they do it, but i still only rmb bits and pieces in the end. -.- and i made 2 capuccino last night. now i know how to foam the milk already. hahaha. I WANNA GO TRY THEIR FONDUE UH! :D and all this time, the way i've been scooping ice cream at cartel, ITS WRONG. damn it la. no wonder my gloves and hands are full of ice cream whenever i complete a dessert then. -.-

something related to my work. hehehe.

cry it all out, and i'll forget whatever that happened.
thats my poor memory at work.

2009-04-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

i felt kinda dead today. no mood to do anything, even much less for work. but i still worked anw. and i broke a glass. dang. for so long in cartel, i never broke anything. now at my new workplace, its just slightly over a week, and i broke a juice glass. because i forgot to switch the tap to cold water, my hand bathed in hot water, and i dropped the glass out of reflex action. luckily its only in the sink. hahaha.

on a lighter note, i'm finishing new moon soon! heh! now i gotta find some time to head over to Popular, the budget bookshop to get eclipse. its good to be a slow reader eh, because now, there're stocks for the books! HAHAHA.

okay. this sucks. i miss a lot of things. i miss seeing 3 words on my phone when my phone rang early in the morning. i miss seeing 3 words or 1 word with a symbol when my phone vibrated upon receiving a text message. i miss working with you. i miss you insisting on that i work till 9pm only. i miss looking forward to knocking off so that i could tell you so. i miss waiting for your call after your work ended. i miss waiting for your call during your meal break. i miss calling you weird names on the phone. i miss the same response i get all the time for calling you those weird names. i miss our late night chats. i miss getting duty over and done with so that i could hurry off first (so that you could call). i miss pretending to hung up on you. the list goes on. there are so many things to miss, and as soon as i think about one, i forget about the other.
i miss the way you get worried about me, your concern, the way you supported me. imy.

back to new moon now. somehow, i could relate to bella's situation.

2009-04-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

my heart rate goes up, and i feel the rush of adrenaline. the exhaustion that i felt suddenly disappears, and i feel awake. awake enough to be reminded of unpleasant stuffs. it feels like things are getting worse, and work isn't much of a solution. its this kind of feeling, that assures me that i'm right about the upsetting facts. guess i was bluffing myself all along, and bluffing others, too. i cant help but admit that theres double protection right now. that was so subtle, and yet so powerful. or maybe the more insignificant it seemed to be, the more strength it holds.

work today was horrendous, disastrous, not so pleasant, to me. i dont like to do opening. its like a morning workout for me. sweeping, mopping, wiping, washing. its no wonder that the skin on my fingertips are starting to crack. but i learned a couple of new things again today. i baked cookies at work eh! :D they're awfully yummy. (i got to try them too. hahha.) but i didn make the dough. :(

and then, back to fuhua for alumni band prac. i sucked, a lot, again. tsk. thats what i get for not touching my dear flute for around half a year. plus i was kinda sleepy. =x hehehe. and then, dinner with some of the people. ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I ATE AT CU. HAHA.

I'M FINALLY HALFWAY THROUGH. LOL.

i'm worn out already. and i'm thinking about shirley at this moment. hahaha.

2009-04-02T01:35:00.001+08:00

DEJA VU. DEFINITELY DEJA VU.
sososo similar please. but because i've gone through something similar to that, it doesn't bother me as much as it would. heh.

April fools', and i was fooled only once. bestie told me she was hospitalised. dont blame me for believing it! she have this huge lump on her throat yesterday, so i thought she was hospitalised because of that. but anw, I THINK ITS HIGH TIME FOR YOU TO GO SEE THE DOC LO.

work was kinda horrible today. opening shld only take half and hour, and i took 2 hours. and i was kinda worn out, and was in slow motion mode the entire shift. prolly thats why i took 2 hours to do opening. i slept quite a lot the day before leh, but still like that, dont know why uh.

damn that tagboard on the left. -.- tag people, tag! :D

2009-04-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

had a chat with kenneth and corina just now. its been ages since i chatted on msn uh. i shall start clicking people, instead of waiting for people to click me.

but anw, kenneth is still in the philippines right now. and he seems to be enjoying it a whole lot. corina is still as approachable as ever. i think i haven been talking to them for quite some time already. hmmm.

caught confessions of a shopaholic with bestie, and shopped a lot. the entire of my last month's pay is gone already. and i still think that its not really enough. I SHALL BELIEVE THAT WORK WILL REFRAIN ME FROM SPENDING TOO MUCH! HEH.

okay. first morning shift tmr, im gng sleep already. goodnight! :D

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS' DAY!

2009-03-31T08:22:00.000+08:00

wake up to a fresh new morning, with one lesser commitment. i cant say im totally not sad uh. but i'll be missing some of the times with you eh. hahaha.

anw, this brought me back to things last year (again). how scary (and stunning) that things were so similar to another. but the one great difference is that we could still talk, that i'm quite glad.

looking back, there are too much i-dont-knows, and i believed i protected myself way too much. bestie said i gotta thank someone from my past that i could survive it last night. yeah i think so too. if it wasn't for him, i would throw myself out, yet again. and i'm worried for myself too, i dont know this part of me, is it just a pretence to be alright (when i'm totally not), or am i really alright. i really dont know.

it was a little bit of everything that caused us to behave this way i guess. i think it would be hard to say that you didn care at all about them. you see, even the start of this paragraph has uncertainties already. i'll go @.@ if i count the number of uncertainties in the entire entry.

i'll be hanging out with bestie for the entire day later. the plans for the day weren't like that initially. hahaha. but anw, i'll commit myself to work and bestie more now. i wanna go back to life the way it was in january 08 till april 08. its time i take out my flute and start playing it again.

the last thing that a girl would want to hear her boyfriend say is that she deserves someone better.

2009-03-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

oh man. my birthday falls on a school day.
i'm wondering if its good or bad. hmmm.

2009-03-26T10:39:00.000+08:00

i'm back from telunas indonesia! its really really really pretty there! (a bit too pretty for a LTC. hahaha.) well anw, i slept a lot after i reached home. heh. and sorry for being out of reach from 22nd to 24th. i dont know if i received your smses too. hahaha.

i saw many many many crabs,
i saw a pretty pretty pretty beach,
i saw a beautiful beautiful beautiful nightsky,
and i saw a clean sea.

these are the things that you'll never find in singapore, and they're so pretty that everything you do, you try to leave it as it is. the first day was jungle trekking, and the second was at the resort. the second day felt so stress-free that you would really think that you're on a holiday (with all the beautiful scenery).

now i'm back in singapore, and back to reality. working later at somewhere new, and i do hope that everything goes well. and i gotta look for replacements for all the sundays before term starts. thats 3 more sundays to go. gosh.

i need to take a look at next year's academic calendarrrrr. I WANT MY BIRTHDAY TO BE A HOLIDAY! :D

2009-03-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

in a dilemma, again.
and this time, its worse.

i feel like moving. heh.

2009-03-18T01:03:00.001+08:00

bumped into shirley last thursday in the movies. pure coincidence eh. she even got the seat next to me. i think she stalked me, not the other way around. hahaha. btw, its rcc, not ccr. HEH.

quite a hectic weekend i had, as usual. cscc day is over, and i'm done burning the discs. hooray! :D i still love my dear lappy okay. but really sorry for the trouble yeah. i dont know what i could do then.

work is insanely busy in the afternoon. wayyyyy more busy than the weekends, because we're shorthanded because of cost-cutting measures. if we're shorthanded because we're understaffed, theres really only one thing i can say, they should have seen it coming. hah.

i think work will be insanely busy tmr night. damn. i'm still lacking sleep. i dont like to be a runnerrrrr. :(

"if you were the new burger at mcdonalds, you would be the mcgorgeous."
HAHAHA.

release of results tmr morning. gosh.

2009-03-09T19:22:00.000+08:00

Another quizzzzz!

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

click here!

2009-03-09T18:48:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

i did this quiz last april, and i've changed a bit. hehehe. oh wells. haha.

2009-03-09T14:33:00.000+08:00

pretty busy and worn out these few days. esp my heels! super pain ah. it feels like the cycle during the october holidays is beginning again.

work has been fun, tiring (and underpaying) these few days. HAHAHA.
fun because i had an assistant on friday night. (heh heh :D)
and there were many many desserts on saturday night.
i almost ran out of footed pilsner, and i had to top up my things while doing desserts. HAHA.
but it was fun. HEH.

and i think i have 职业病. mama got a box of strawberries for me, and the first thing i thought of was the container of strawberries inside the db. HAHAHA. its not my fault! they look the same! :p

alright. im gng do my stuffs already. heh.

P.S. i'm losing all my reasons to blog.

2009-03-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

i really wonder if what i'm doing is right.
开心就好
I 开心 but 不安心

in life, you'll gain some, you'll lose some.
i've really made up my mind about some things.
but now, i'll need to think about how i should bring it across.

okay. enough of the emo stuffs.

DAC09 CLASS CHALET
okay i was really really really late. and i think i ate really a lot. hoho. then truth or dare after bbq. and then some things happened, well but its over. take care of yourselves okay people. the second and third day of chalet was a little dry ah. most of the time, there is at least one person sleeping. and then the remaining people caught marley & me at downtown east. only the part towards the end was nice. then we set up the bbq pit again. thanks edmund for starting the fire, though we didn eat much. =x and then a few rounds of card, and we're all knocked out. hahaha.

some things will be left behind in the chalet.
thats it.
and i feel sorry for the people who have to clean up our chalet.
its in a total mess, seriously.

had some talks, and still some problems left hanging unsolved. well, its the end of year one already huh. lets all enjoy this holidays, and move on. we cant enjoy poly life, if we believe we wont. look straight ahead, and go. turn back, and you'll fall behind. this is something that everyone knows.

OKAY. off to my daily routine. <3

2009-03-02T13:00:00.001+08:00

life feels different these few days. i know why.
my mind is preoccupied with things lately,
and i'm thinking hard, harder than how my mind functioned during the exams.

its always nice to have someone to share your burden,
but its worrying to see how that someone worry about you.
contradicting,
but true.

I looked back at some things that happened last year,
and saw that some things could have been avoided.
i guess i was not sensitive enough.
now i dont wanna think about that anymore.

i wanna be all about you.

2009-02-27T10:06:00.002+08:00

caught benjamin buttons at vivo yesterday! quite interesting, in fact more than what i expected. shirley told me a bit of the storyline, but i still kept on watching. heh heh. and the end was awfully touching, and sad. :(

then headed over to the esplanade to feel the breeze. it has been ages since i had really done that. but sadly, last night no breeze. -.- not much la. hahaha. then over to pasta de waraku at marina square. i had cabonara againnnnn. HEHE. small portion but superrrrr filling ah. just like the manhattan fish and chips. so next time dine at these two places if you wanna have lasting food in your stomach okay. heh. :D

slept pretty late last night, but woke up at 9am plus. i'm pretty tired, too. and i'll need to last till tonight because of work. tmr and sunday will be 2 very long days. and then its the class chalet already. class chalet might be a time for me to replenish my sleep. heh heh heh.

sorry and thank you. <3

2009-02-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

i'm torn between what i'm thinking and what i'm feeling. i think its right for you to stay there, but i know thats not what i'm wishing for.

dang. i'm having a bad headache now because of this. because i was forcing myself to make a decision.

2009-02-23T15:19:00.000+08:00

work last night. tiring because we're shorthanded by 2 staffs, enjoyable because there were plenty of desserts. the dessert bar was nicely topped up by peini and yvonne! thank you thank you, xie xie ni men. :D

slept quite late last night (or maybe this morning), and woke up at around 1pm. had lunch, and also the sweetest dessert. :D

working friday night saturday night and sunday morning, when i gave quite a lot of days i'm free. i'm thinking hard, hard on whether i shld get another job, or change job. or else i'll be pretty free this holiday, excluding the various camps i have. ohya, theres the class chalet coming up next week.

3 movies i wanna catch. benjamin buttons, bride wars, and he's just not that into you.

2009-02-22T01:57:00.000+08:00

& like we all believed, TIME FLEW EH. hello holidays! :D

went out yesterday, caught the wedding game, had manhattan, and talked. i bought a hamster ball for my sumo hamster cream. i want him to be healthy okay. hahaha. manhattan wasnt as nice as i thought it would be. i mean the food. the place feels alright though. hehehe.

worked just now. split shift. my first split shift in ages. i think since the last semester break. pretty long eh. and i took a peek at next week's schedule just now. i'll just accept it that i wont earn much this holidays. and i shall not spend much, hopefully. hahaha. :x

if only i can hurry up and walk out of it.

2009-02-13T15:03:00.000+08:00

i'm currently thinking about getting concessions for both bus and train. luckily i have a habit of keeping receipts for topping up my ezlink card. because, the amount i spend on topping up my card every month is a whopping $60. if i add on the amount spent on concession, my monthly travelling expenses is $110. SO NOT WORTH IT OKAY. its been ages since i dined at mac using my ezlink, so food is not counted. tsktsktsk.

okay. i'm gng rush my gems essay. due at 5pm later! i'm still at home now. OMGGGGG.

maybe i really should get the concession for bus and train. hahaha. and prolly bus to jurong east from bishan, then bus home from jurong east. HAHAHA.

its friday the 13th yo.

2009-02-12T09:38:00.000+08:00

time will fly next week.

that familiarity,
made me wonder if i'm really over it.

2009-02-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

mob test laterrrrr. soonnnnn. this week is frigging packed. and so is next week. but everything will end before you know it. by the time you realise it, we've already come to the end of year one. heh.

theres no need to explain, because i'll know if i should. (:

2009-02-09T22:59:00.000+08:00

i'm no longer passionate about them anymore. i was thinking about that, and now its like that. sometimes i regret picking up things that you cant put down. but then again, because i cant put them down, it puts me through a test of endurance. i've kinda sorted out my priorities, and it'll definitely be a disappointment to many. like they said, you've got to enjoy life, and live it to the fullest.

i've got some rough plans for the holidays already. heh. actually dont really need to plan la. hahaha. because it constitutes mainly of one thing: work. of course i'll play hard too. and i hate it when things clash, very very much. this is when my organiser comes in handy! :D

its always the case when i'm dreaming about post exams activities during the study week. always.

i cant wait for next friday to come, terribly.

2009-02-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

i was slightly hyper and slightly noisy this morning. heh.

today is the last day of first year whereby lessons go on. i didn skip any lesson today, and even came early for econs tutorial. :D

piano lesson just now, and had the most fustrating wait for a bus my entire life. i waited for an hour for that damned 99 or 185. there was only 2 per hour, and all buses were packed like a can of sardines. whats wrong with sbs transit eh? i thought theres a recession, and normal goods (like bus rides) are supposed to be high in demand? -.- hence there shld be supply for it! i was so frigging irritated that i decided to cab home. luckily the taxi driver was a polite lady, otherwise i would have blew my top the moment i got off the taxi.

i've been kinda short-tempered lately. it would be really nice if you dont repeat what you say too much. repeating once is enough. just once. (:

at least you asked. (:

2009-02-05T15:57:00.002+08:00

been pretty busy these few days. with the last project in, the load is gone! heres what im busy with lately: itab, sleeping, eating, and going out with mama. i've slept back all the time that spent on itab. HEHEHE. and its over! :D

study week next week, and then its the exams already. and my first year in SP is over. time flies, doesn't it? i can still rmb the date of freshmen orientation, 7th April 2008. first day of school, 14th April 2008. and many other things. i'll save the flashbacks for later. (:

i'd tell you everything, if i had the intention to.

2009-02-03T13:18:00.000+08:00

drop the pretense, because thats the right thing to do.
but dont drop it, because all these will end.
how contradicting.

it would be really great, to know none of it.

2009-02-01T23:23:00.001+08:00

My first Cookies and Cream Milkshake!
Yvonne taught me how to do it today. heh.

And Yvonne was super sweet to her customers eh. HAHA.

And shes super sweet to me too. :D

enjoyed myself at work today. a lot. hahaha. and i made my second drink! :D the first one was iced mochaccino. hehehe. wasn't very busy today, i even had time to whip out my phone to snap a few pictures.

and it was benjie's last day today. poor guy, he cried during his break, and we prepared a nasi lemak set B cum prima deli cake for him. had a little farewell party for him, and then i left with yvonne to have some desserts. hahaha. i wont be seeing him anymore. he'll be going back to philippines next friday. i'll miss him eh. and i've been treating him quite nice yesterday and today. Lol. though i know he wont see this, but, DONT FORGET US OKAY BENJIE! :D

school tmr, again. i really can't wait for the holidays to come. it'll be filled with so much non-academic activities, in other words, fun. :D

okay. gng do serious stuffs already. heh.

2009-01-31T21:14:00.000+08:00

flashbacks;
i still do space out when i talk about it.

euphoria;
is what that i look forward every other day.

disappointments;
when it seems like history is repeating itself.

i need to believe that it'll be different, before its too late.

2009-01-30T16:12:00.001+08:00

poor time management is killing me. sososo much. i planned to finish econs paper, tutorial, and more papers yesterday. but hahaha, didnt manage to. and this morning i overslept, and was late again.

i still have 2 movies that i wanna watch! the wedding game and bride wars! but exams are coming soon eh. v soon. i've got so many things undone. :(

and its the weekends again! which means that we're all another week closer to the final papers. working tmr morning! whooooo.

gosh. itab is gonna be due soon.

/edit
mandy! sorry for scaring you during MOB today because of my carelessness. :x

2009-01-29T01:27:00.001+08:00

caught love matters with the cartel people today! i think its super funny! was laughing like crazy in the beginning and the end. and then yoshinoya again for dinner. heh.

alright. gng sleep now. (again) GOODNIGHT!

you've got my heart racing.

2009-01-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

i wonder if i've lost my ability to sense it. if i lost it because of that, it'll mean that its not the end yet, or worse, its the end, and there're no means to save it.

and all i get are question marks.

2009-01-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

and so i spent my entire first day of the lunar new year at home. somewhat similar to the 1st January new year of 2009. except that on 1st Jan, i went to see a doc, and i went to the temple just now.

i'm gonna go sleep now, cos i'm working tmr morning. double pay eh! HAHAHAHA. and then to grandma's house in the evening. i just hope i dont screw up work tmr just like i did last saturday. i have no idea why i've been blogging just right before i turn off my lappy lately. hahaha.

if r/s were that easy to get over, there won't be sucha thing called heartbreak. either that, or you didn't love your guts out.

OKAY GOODNIGHT. (:

2009-01-25T02:28:00.000+08:00

I RECEIVED MY NAME INK/STAMP ALREADY. HEHEHE.

i did my spring cleaning for my room till now. HAHAHA. now i'm reallyyyyy tired. whoo.

okay i'm really really tired. gng sleep now. heh.

2009-01-23T14:55:00.000+08:00

my hectic week will be over soon. YAY. hahaha.

i suddenly got very desperate in finding new year clothes. really really desperate. i thought i wouldn't mind not getting any, but actually, I THINK I MIND A LOT A LOT. HAHAHHA. and mama will be shopping with me at jurong point tonight. YAYNESS. WHOOOOO.

someone told me life is like an album, a song album. its quite true, the way its explained.

okay. MOB now. hah.

2009-01-22T00:23:00.001+08:00

made a name ink/stamp with shirley this afternoon (or rather, yesterday afternoon). hahaha. it'll be arriving via postage! i hope it'll turn out fine! :D

ohya. i had a little surprise for sis during itab. the day before itab, i told sis i had a surprise for him, and he was kinda scared la. hor? HAHAHA. anw, my hair got chopped off too. but nvm, my head feels light. hehehe. :D

dined at cartel at bishan just now too! mainly desserts ah. actually its 3 dessert, plus a drink. we made some ourselves! roy's treat with his cartel vouchers. then to plaza sing, and then bugis, and then home. walked a lot today eh. good exercise! heh! :D

i'm feeling the pain in my heels already. @.@ ohya, i havent got my new year clothes yet. maybe i'm not getting any this year. but i do want to go shopping! :(

i got my pay already. hohoho. not a lot though. i think i'm gonna support myself with it, excluding expenses like school fees. it'll be very limited, but i think i'll pull through. :)

my throat isnt getting any better. dang.

okay. my bed is calling for me. hahaha. nites eh! :D

2009-01-21T10:21:00.000+08:00

i'm totally lost in MS Frontpage. dang. its all because i love my bed too much eh. HAHAHA. in other words, i was late for school. heh.

i cleaned my study room at midnight. HAHA. and now its super neat. at least it looks neat to me. mama has been saying that i wasn't doing much of spring cleaning. and so i did some, and when i was packing, she came and told me to go sleep, and to forget about cleaning. hahaha. but i still continued anw. <3 mama la. heh. :D

i think i'm gonna receive another warning letter for my gems. i cant make it this week tooooo. blame my poor memory for it then. and i don't want to be barred from my CA because of my attendance! and, sorry joshua. like everytime pangseh you like that. @.@

OKAY. I'M GNG FIND THAT ONLINE GAMES WEB. THE WEB WHICH I FORGOT THE URL. TSK.

2009-01-20T00:10:00.001+08:00

i told shirley that i would be sleeping by 9pm tonight. and its a bit over 3 hours past that time. i didn't know that i'm so wols. tsk.

IDEAS DOWN. the last few assignments left are ITAB and gems essay. and then its the exams, and then its the HOLIDAYS! :D

okayyyyy. i'm gng sleep now. Cynthia is lacking sleep, many many, many many.

2009-01-19T02:06:00.001+08:00

don't do things for the sake of doing it.
do it, to achieve it.
otherwise its just a complete waste of time and effort.

caught red cliff 2 with peini yesterday night. i think its nice. ah liang v clever eh. heh. reached home pretty late. :x and worked today, and airport duty just now. was super tired and exhausted at work this morning. couldn't really focus. :x hahaha. and something baddddd happened today. peini knows. :x

i'd rather believe in my senses, than get hurt.

hectic week ahead next week! @.@

2009-01-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

i've been coughing my lungs out these few days.
dont know whats wrong too.
prolly its just the weather,
and hopefully its just the weather.
i cant afford to fall sick now, and again.

i've got to continue my race, again.

2009-01-14T10:29:00.001+08:00

i buried it all inside, and thought i could get away with it. but i couldn't eh. it kinda hurts to be reminded about it.
i just wanna know why i'm not over it.

samsung. sucks. many many, and super much.
if only i wasn't so stubborn to not bring my spare battery and charger.
tsk.

and i really wanna thank the people who worry about my stuffs. thanks people. :)

2009-01-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

i've been coughing quite a lot lately, but mostly at home. hahaha. i also dont know whats wrong eh. Lol.

crs was pretty bad with the entire class present. the 2 groups that went first yesterday were quite lucky uh. nvm. i'll just convince myself that its just 40%. hahaha. NOT.

mob was pretty bad too. the scoring system sucks okay. because my team is the last team la. 30points for the 1st, and 5 points for the last. we failed this section badly, just because we lost in a game. i think its kinda stupid. again, i feel this way prolly because my team is affected super badly.

alright. i'm super tired. really really tired. no more tutorials tonight. hah.

i know i'll fight and resist it,
but part of me doesn't want to.

2009-01-12T22:29:00.003+08:00

i'm running a never ending race.

it feels like its forever the o'level period now.

assignments and projects come in and they're piling up,

way too fast.

i've lost my sense of urgency.

if only i could make up my mind properly.

everytime i've made a decision, something happens.

something that made me reconsider.

my heels hurt.

and thats normal for every monday.

every monday after airport duty.

i'm gng continue my race people.

byeeeee.

2009-01-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

its high time for me to go runninggggg or do some form of exercise la. hahaha. ive been spending a lot of money on eating these days. @.@

i'm thinking about ___ it. hahaha. but its about the effort i've already put in though. sigh.

alrighty. im gng sleep nowwwww. nites and take care people! :D

2009-01-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

back to school. and its the first day of school for 2009 for me. hohoho.

i miss working mann. really. i cancelled a total of 20.5 hours of schedule last week because of what happened. so i'll make sure im going to enjoy work this saturday and sunday. :D

itab tmr. theres some test tmr. and then im gonna go food hunting. then its bbq social gathering meeting. then i have piano lesson. whooooo. what a day. hah.

you know it sucks totally when no one believes you.

2009-01-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

hooooo. im back at home already

many many thanks to:

- papa, mama and kor
- peini (!), brian, roy, pearlyn, derrick
- alfred, benjaminLEE, boonsiong, chien wei, chongxiang, darrenKOH, derek, elsen, kaiqin, kok keong, weijie, weikiat, vincent, yongxiang
- delphine, pei shan and many many church people

who came to visit. im so touched la. really really really.

the flowers the cartel people got for me. so sweet. :D roy got us some snacks because we complained that we were hungry. hahaha. thanks eh! :D

im gng back to school tmr. whooooo. alexandra's food is really nice. hahahaha. i think i gained weight already =x

and to joshua who wanted this:
HAPPY NEW YEAR TOO! may your hand get better soon! and thank you many many for going to gems class with me so often! whoo! you rock eh! :D

alright! i think im becoming more tired le. energy from my nap is wearing off. @.@

2009-01-01T23:33:00.001+08:00

as requested from delphineeeee.

good points about her:
- available almost 24/7
- gives logical advice
- great listener
- looks confidence and speaks with confidence
- able to reassure people
- very sensitive to what people do or say (as in you dont need to say it directly, she'll get you. :D )

bad points about her:
- quite sensitive to what people do (in a bad way)
- very conscious about her image

wishes for her:
- i hope your jian fei ji hua will succeed!
- i hope you take good care of yourself when your school reopens!
- you should also try to put down the unhappy things in 2008!
- i hope she comes out to meet me more! :D

hahaha. thats all. short entry, but i took quite some time to get it done. take care bestie! sorry for the wait ah. anw, thanks for the advice 2 nights ago. i really woke up and feel that i shld just let it be. and thanks for that touching sms that made me cry on the bus home. cos at that point of time i was really really sad, and was on the verge of breaking down. nevertheless, it showed that you cared. you believed me though you weren't with me. and when you took care of me at your workplace, i was awfully touched. i could really feel your concern for me. you even made me a card while i was resting, and walked to to the main road when i had to leave. you also went down to bishan just to check if i was alright, and you waited for 3 long hours even though i only noticed you around 2 hours after you came. thank you so much bestie. :')

2009-01-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

skipped school yesterday though i was already out. and so i went to bestie's workplace to sleep. HAHAHA. you were so damn sweet la! still make me card somemore. -shy- hahaha. and then i went to work after taking 2 pills.

public holiday eves are super busyyyyy. its actually the first time i saw a queue outside cartel on a weekday. i was the cashier, but actually, i billed less than 10 tables, because there were many db things to do! @.@ i got extended till 5pm, because i really couldn't finish doing my things. then brian came in earlier to help me a bit. hahaha. then bestie came to check on me to see if im alright. so sweet. awwwww. but i was still fine, just a little shagged.

i reached home to find that im really not fine. HAHAHA. so in the end, i stayed at home and countdown to the new year in my dreams, who occasional smses and calls to wish me a happy new year. the surprising thing is that my voice was distorted when i picked up the call. as in i dont know to cough and cough to get the sound right. hahaha.

then then then. 1st jan 2009! i couldnt work la. mann. 1.5X pay leh! i very very sad ah. x( and so i've decided to work on chinese new year! HAHAHA. whooooo

okayokay. im not going to school tmr cos i got mc! im going to make full use of what the doc gave me. if not its not worth the money. HAHAHA! (plus i haven't do my econs tutorial yet. :x )

gng sleep now.

ohya, when i have fever, i have weird dreams. i dreamt about the ninja turtles last time, and last night, i was trying my best to memorise the flea fly camp song. HAHAHA. i dont know why. HAHA.

NITES AND HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

2008-12-31T00:28:00.000+08:00

im sick. x( i feel light-headed. and cold, and hot at the same time, and some of my fingers were numb. i went home during the 2 hour break to sleep. and even cancelled piano lesson to sleep more. then i went out to meet bestie at night.

she made plenty of sense today, though she felt she didn. hey bestie, if you're reading this, your words woke me up. so yeah, im gonna move on. whooooo.

lesson tmr, then work, then piano lesson, then to countdown! :D i wanna beg mama to let me goooooooooooooooooo. x(

把爱放开把手放开

如果你的心已不在

把爱放开不再等待

你的温柔是一片空白

把爱放开把心打开

这次我决定走出回忆重来

就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来

i think this song is really nice and meaningful, though its from quite long ago. hahaha.

happy new year eve people! :D

im feeling a whole lot better. :D

2008-12-27T22:39:00.001+08:00

whooooo. FO training again today. this time its the walking to bukit timah and climbing up the hill. and i actually hanged on throughout. its definitely an achievement for me! :D :D :D pearlyn oso felt that sense of achievement. hehehe.

anw, i think the katong laksa there tastes awesome! janel got it, and i tastes a bit of it, and i decided that i want it. heh. :D they said the prata there is not bad, but next time la. hahaha.

school is reopening sooooon. oh man, i dont think i have time to do pacc tutorial leh. tcher said hes gonna go through it on monday. if i dont do it later, i really wont have time to do it. @.@ i need to pack up my balcony too. mama has been nagging since i came home from the first FO training. hahaha.

i think that sentence that edward cullen said in twilight is awfully sweet.
"i don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore."
awwwww.

2008-12-26T23:44:00.000+08:00

caught twilight today. thats my 3rd movie this week. first was ip man on monday, then yes man on christmas (the one i fell asleep watching. :x ). whooooo.

i wanna catch bedtime stories! heres the reason why.

i really laughed till @.@ when i saw the commercial about it that time when i caught bolt with delphine.

mama found this on the net. so i put it here. LOL.

"I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore."
i think thats really sweet. awwwww.

2008-12-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

schools gonna start again soon. this sucks, BECAUSE I WANNA PLAY MORE LA. 3 weeks passed so fast. but the good thing is that mst is over. WOOOOO. otherwise i would have been studying the whole of this week. hahaha.

i forgot to say that i got myself an organiser! i think its really really pretty. yueyin and i got a matching one. mine is "dream" and hers is "passion". mine is black and hers is white. we got it from artbox at the new jp extension. the things there are really pretty and quite useful! i'm so tempted to buy many many many things la. if only it was a hardcover organiser, then it would be awesome.

im doing quite many bad things recently. karma is gonna get me soon. ohno ohno.

and thank you. it was a heavy load off my heart. that'll be my best gift for this christmas.

2008-12-25T16:44:00.002+08:00

whooooo. i'm kinda busy these 2 days. busy not as in work and serious stuffs, busy as in FUN.

went for 4E3 CHALET (!) at pasir ris on tuesday night and stayed till wednesday morning to pack up and leave tgt. talked till pretty late about 2 main topics. HAHA. den i couldnt take it, i and slept. i woke up at 8am plus to find everyone sleeping, and so i went back to sleep. LOL. and then i woke up again at 9am plus. arnd 11am we left. most of them went to have lunch at white sands, but yueyin jocelyn and i went back.

my afternoon plan was cancelled, so i went to dine at the new swensens at jurong point! JURONG POINT IS FRIGGING BIG NOW. @.@ i could really get lost la. HAHAHA. chatted with yy about many things, and mann, i learnt about many things about the 4e3 people. they're definitely not gossips. i'm missing the secondary school days (again). gone were the days that we understand each other almost perfectly, and gone were the times that even if you said the wrong things, they would be understood in the right way. those days were gone. i'm definitely missing every single bit about secondary school life.

then out with the cartel people last night. i thought it was just a eat and talk and byebye session, but we caught a midnight movie, and i was super underdressed. because i was about to go for mandy's party. Lol. but, whooooo. my very first midnight movie, and i fell asleep many many times. i wasted my money laaaaa. because they said it was an awesome movie. i think so too, because everytime i woke up, there was something to laugh about. LOL. cabbed home with them, AND THANK YOU MANY MANY PEOPLE! thanks for sending me back to jurong west before going back to the north. sorry for the trouble too. :x reached home really really late, and went to sleep almost immediately.

alrighty. im gng work now. okbye. :D

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS! <3

2008-12-23T18:18:00.000+08:00

i have so much to say. sososo much, but i cant say it out. the other reason is because i speak too slow, and im kinda overflowing with words that are yet to be said inside.

and you know i feel so cheated. really. really really cheated. hopefully you'll stop it soon. cos its not nice at all, not a single bit. cant you just be honest huh. you're so contradicting your own words. you're the kinda person that disgusts me. well, of course i dont feel that way when you're around uh. but when i think back, thats the kind of person you really are. Lol.

and theres a limit to everything. dont push it eh. enough is enough.

gng bathe now, and rush down to pasir ris.

hey cynthia, you better not forget what you're thinking right at this moment.

2008-12-22T01:56:00.000+08:00

my heels hurt.

i have many many towers of books in my study room now. cos ma and pa got me a new shelf. so the things on the shelf had to be emptied, and then placed onto the new one. the problem is, i dont have the time to shift the things back onto the new shelf. tsktsktsk.

work yesterday and airport duty yesterday. work today and airport duty just now. i ate at wangs cafe just now! i still think ya kun is nicer. hehehe. and i gotta buck up on my audits, a whole lot.

and thank you mandy for the card! i was too shocked (and too slow) to react when i saw you. i was still in bananarama waffle mode when you passed me the card. LOL. Merry Christmas to you too! :D

btw, cafe cartel really has the yummiest waffle i think. you dont need maple syrup to go with it. whooooo. YUMMY! :D and you dont even need the ice cream to go with it to have it taste awesome. HEHEHE.

alrighty. OFF TO SLEEP! NITES! :D

2008-12-20T06:42:00.001+08:00

BACK FROM CHALET! :D

hahaha. the 3 days passed really fast. i hope the people who went enjoyed themselves, including the OCs! :D

i really had fun being the secretary for this event. WHOOOOO. and this is the first time we hit the no. of target participants, and also, this time we didn go over-budget! :D and the indemnity forms are all filled up already! YAY! :D

on the way home on train yesterday, something happened. pearlyn and i were talking about dramas, and then she wanted to say 1 litre of tears, and then she said Half litre of bucket. HAHAHA. then she kept changing the topic to other things la. LOL.

okay. gng prepare for work later. and i've got airport duty later too.

lastly, WELFARE ZAI! :D

2008-12-16T10:10:00.000+08:00

whooooooooooo. one packed week ahead!

okok. i came back from aspiration camp. and wanted to do the minutes for cscc day, buden, i couldn't take it, so i went to sleep. (anw, it'll be up tonight. confirm!) the camp is quite fruitful, cos it made me learn many things about down syndrome kids. although i hold many regrets now, i still think its a fruitful camp. :D

then was work on sunday morning and airport duty. :D

then welfare meeting yesterday. its the longest meeting that ive ever been to. LOL. then i went to buy socks at bishan before work. I ACTUALLY RAN OUT OF WEARABLE SOCKS. wearable as in not loose or too big. :D then work as cashier. i think its karma or something la. from 6pm to 7.15pm. i kept complaining that its very boring and theres nothing to do. then in the end, ive got tons of dessert and cashiering to do. yvonne and brian and joanna had to come and help me. LOL. i even provided free labour till 10.50pm just because i couldn't finish what i had to do on time. Lol.

then cartel christmas party! basically, its just eating and laughing la. guixiang was sitting next to me, so i dont need to worry if im bored. HAHAHA. and then we took some pictures and went home. :D

okok. work later! i overslept and missed piano lesson. :x but tcher said i could go for lesson at 6.30pm. :D

2008-12-11T00:05:00.001+08:00

camp tmr, and i haven pack my bag yet. reporting time is 7.30am. HAHAHA.

meeting this morning. and then i couldnt go for the welfare meeting. =x the next meeting i sure go. cos i confirm not working on monday afternoon (im keeping that time for meeting! :D).

worked this afternoon and just now. got extended till night. hehehe. i was whining a lot just now. =x and i couldnt finish my things in time. so i asked for help from eunice and joanna. and quite a number of things happened. Lol.

camp tmrrrrr. and i'll be back on saturday. as in back home, not back here. hahaha.

2008-12-09T10:34:00.000+08:00

DELPHINEEEEE at Benten Cafe. :B

OH IT WAS SAD.

yesterday marked the last day that i spent with pair of sandals. (and now i gotta get something casual to wear to school. -.-)

OH IT WAS SAD.

it walked with me through many many things, and also gave me the mark of my life:

OH IT WAS SAD.

that it cannot spend anymore time with me. because now its like that:

OH IT WAS SAD.

LOL.

yesterday on the way home, the thing snapped while i was going down the escalator. i was damn shocked. because less than half an hour ago, delphine and i bumped into (lightning) neko at sportslink, and then i was talking about how long my sandal lasted and about his sandal that snapped, too.

anw, i know its very very very dirty. i was thinking of washing it today or tmr, because of all the shit and mud that i stepped on at padang. but because it snapped, wearing it to the padang sort of made it become a disposable pair of sandals, because im not wearing it anymore.

and i was all whiney yesterday on the way home. i was "walaooooo"-ing all the way. sad uh.

2008-12-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

and i didn update yesterday. but anw, IM HERE AGAIN. HAHAHA.

the night before the standard chartered marathon was fun, all the way till morning. WHOOOOO. chats with some welfare peeps were nice, and the playing of cards in school was madness. but its a whole lot of fun for sure. HAHAHA.

and then i'll fast forward to the standard chartered marathon event. my groupmates chatted a bit, and i was really really exhausted, and so i just sat and listened. then when the first few runners came back, i went to sleep. =x sorry sorry. then gave out the medals. and then we were allowed to leave.

trained back together with jingwen mandy derrick johnson and moonkian. and then went home, and slept all the way till this morning. HAHAHA. then went out for piano lesson and came home to change and have lunch, and went out to meet BESTIEEEEE! :D we watched bolt, and then dined at long john, and then at Benten Cafe for desserts (this new restaurant that replaced the pizza place, maybe its not new, BUT JUST THAT IM NOT AWARE LA. HAHAHA.) and then walk walk. heh.

im crazy about chip and dale since forever. the elmo thing, is just a "3 minute hot degree" if you translate it directly into chinese. HEH. im currently begging mama to get me that chip and dale cushion from MICKEY (also a new store, that replaced gift a name. maybe it isnt new too, but the point is, IM NOT AWARE. LOL.).

alrighty. heres the most important thing of the entry. BOLT IS NICE, AND ITS ONE CARTOON THAT MADE ME CRY. go watch! madagascar is more of a laugh-all-the-way thing. HEH.

i know im a bit late for this, but HAVE A NICE AND FUN TRIP SHI'EN AND SHIRLEY! TAKE CARE EH! :D

enough of my wordy entry. i'll end here. okbyenites.

I HAD FUN TODAY DELPHINEEEEE! and i got your words. <3<3<3

2008-12-06T11:45:00.000+08:00

IM BACKBACKBACKBACKBACK.

MST is over, projects done with, and presented/submitted. i was really waiting for this moment to come, THE MOMENT I CAN SIT DOWN AND UPDATE. HAHAHA. didn manage to update yesterday cos i was running around the island. Lol. after econs paper, i went home to put on my contacts, then went to cut hair, and then went to chinese garden. then i went to bishan for work.

it was really really really busy last night. even though many people help me clear the order forms already, there were still many settlements undone, and then there was a long queue of people who wanted to settle the bill, and they came straight to the counter. and then among the people who were queueing up, some wanted to order the half-priced cakes for takeaway. damn mad ah. and i reached home really really really late last night because i missed the last train to city hall, and had to take the last train to jurong east. and i cabbed home from jurong east.

ALRIGHTY. i'll update tmr night, i think. standard chartered marathon tonight, or tmr morning. maybe i'll see alex. LOL. :D

ohya, we need to wear a santa hat at work. I THINK THATS REALLY CUTE. HAHAHA.

2008-11-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

KENNETH. just when i wanna talk to you online, i dont see you. andandand, heard that you won a Robotics competition (actually, i read it on kok's blog), so, CONGRATS! :D

the STD talk wasnt as boring as i thought it would be. actually its kinda funny leh. HAHAHA. but they sort of covered what we learnt in sec 2 or primary school. and i still remember in sec 2, everyone is asking tcher to hurry and go teach chapter 5 of science. HAHAHA.

IDEAS shopping tmr after school, and IDEAS eating tmr after school.

and the other gems tcher said there is gems during the MST. @.@ (but anw, we'll need to come back for our presentation. i dont know about other gems. Lol.)

alrighty. TEEVEEEEE. :D

2008-11-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

i dont know why, but no matter how much i sleep, its not enough. - . -
assignments are piling up. crs, gems.
tutorials are usually only half-done most of the time.
i'm glad today lessons start at 1pm. :D
ideas shopping this thursday.
std talk this wednesday. - . -
working this sunday.
airport duty this sunday. (ohya, i saw xiao rena yesterday on my way to the airport. still as pretty as ever. :D)
this post was supposed to be up this morning, but oh wells. Lol.
and lastly, this blog is dying.
it'll prolly be revived during the holidays. heh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESMUND! :D

2008-11-15T22:37:00.001+08:00

&neither do i.

2008-11-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

CSCC Welfare Picnic just now! :D i really enjoyed laughing at some parts, esp. the ending cos you-know-why. HAHAHA. but in the end, i was really dead beat. and i (or rather, esmund) took many many pictures. but i doubt the pictures that i have with me now are of better quality than those 2 big cameras there just now. LOL.

alrighty, im gng do serious stuff now. work tmr morning, and airport duty at night again. thats my sunday eh. Lol.

2008-11-14T21:27:00.001+08:00

WE GOT OUR CLASS TEE ALREADY. i love it because i think its really pretty. :D

mob presentation today, allen is our saviour, totally. even though he's feeling unwell, he still could come up with loads of stuff on our reflection, and during the presentation, CAN YOU GUYS REMEMBER WHAT HE DID? i really cant forget it ah. HAHAHA. though our content is quite shallow, i really enjoyed working with ALLEN, EDMUND, ERNING, AND SIAWYING. WOOOOO!

WELFARE PICNIC TMR! WOOOOO.

loads of homework undone. booooooo.

and yeah, 24hours a day aint enough. HAHAHA.

And and and,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY

JINGWEN AND SHIRLEY!
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND!
May all of your wishes come true! :D

rewind, and replay everything in a different way. 'cause it wont be the way it is now.

2008-11-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

and once again, thank you many many to those who noticed that something was wrong. thanks for trying to help too yeah. many many loves. <3
i hate people who say things when they dont mean it. seriously. i feel it, i know it, and i seriously hate it.
repeating things over and over again, just makes me more irritated. doesnt mean that i dont say it, i dont care.
its normal for me to have frequent moodswings these few days. just leave me alone when i get upset or whatever.
my 2 hours break will be wasted tmr. GAH.
and thats all. OKBYE.

2008-11-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

im back again.
i think im gonna blog like this for some time cause it saves time.
am really very tired due to many many things.
and thank you many many corina for cheering me on too. i guess you too know how im feeling. Lol.
i discovered that the pacman game on DS is kinda interesting.
if i could, i would ask my parents to shift house. (but they wont agree, so theres no point in asking.)
alumni band prac was a challenge to me just now. this shows just how much practice i need to return to the me before the SYF last year.
i gave a fake number during a survey that someone did at the dover bus stop.
my hobby is definitely not getting burnt while making waffles.
alright so much for being random
im ending this entry now.
and lastly, i got cakes for my juniors today. :D

2008-11-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

i dislike practical people. a whole lot.
thanks kenneth. i guess you're the only one who really cheers me on. :)
acer sucks, because it hangs whenever i really cannot lose my documents.
it feels as if the whole world is crashing onto me, but i still have my mario kart. heh.
i named my hamsters quite long ago. Cookie and Cream. :D
so many things to say, but no time to type/blog.
and lastly,
you're just like a dog.

2008-11-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

i placed an order for a customised keychain at SB. i was eyeing that keychain since yesterday. LOL.

meeting just now. we're damn noisy. HAHAHA. and it has been a really long time since i talked to the welfare people over dinner. really really really long.

my table is in a total mess. notes are like everywhere, and for mob, scattered everywhere (just now). tutorials (both done and undone) are everywhere too.

only working sunday morning next week. i kinda need a little break. hehehe.

my entries are getting shorter and shorter. heh.

the latest couple in our class. HAHAHA. :D

2008-11-04T08:45:00.001+08:00

skipped gems today. i think im gng for the friday one. then maybe i can see hanley. LOL.

ive got nothing to talk about. except for the fact that sometimes, hard work doesn't pay off.

band camp next week. i think im staying over for the first night. i dont think i can tahan for the next night though.

im finally gng meeting today. my first meeting since the holidays started. (YES YOU DIDN READ WRONGLY. it means that i didn attend any meetings in the holidays. Lol.)

im sitting under the sunlight and blogging. so im stopping. alright. crs at 10am later. okbye.

2008-11-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

i'll try not to lie again. the feeling is awfully awful. its like you're trying to hide the fact that you're lying, and you need to lie more to cover it up. its really mentally exhausting, and really very tiring.

im gonna stay up late today. to study spss. to complete the exercises. i dont wanna screw up tmr. LOL. hopefully my eyes and brain wont fail me tmr morning when i work.

zhenying! my colleague has the same birthdate as you. but not same year though. Lol. so,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PEINI! :D

alright. im gng muggggg. :D

so many birthdays are coming. @.@

2008-10-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

im in a frigging bad mood these few days. to selected people. dont ask me why. i'll tell you if i want to.

i dont see why i deserve all these shit and nonsense. what the hell did i do wrong huh? well i did try to be nice and what nots. but i guess things didn't work out eh. im so sorry, but i think im going to be mean already. maybe it'll work out huh. you're making my life so awful, if you didn't notice. i thought this would be the last thing i'll ever say, but, i cant wait to see you outta my life.

joshua's treat at cafe cartel ps just now. he owe me this meal. HAHAHA. i had carbonara and tiramisu coffee shake. damn nice i tell you. im not saying this cos i work at cafe cartel. its really nice. and im damn full. the only thing that i kinda like about the place is that, THEY HAVE A LOT OF PEOPLE ON GROUNDS. hehehe.

im kinda surprised that natalie and joshua can click so well when they come together for the first time. LOL. anw, thank you many many to natalie, rena, mandy, wangjun, shirley, zhenying for ideas to do the parachute thing. hehehe. thank you many many to our group too! allen edmund erning and siaw ying! :D our egg didn break! :D

thats one wordy entry. oknitesbyepeople.

2008-10-30T17:41:00.000+08:00

i miss crunchyroll. i think it misses me too. i haven visited it for such a long time, when i type "crun" in the explorer web bar, crunchyroll doesnt show up anymore. x( my vampire knight season 2 has already started one month ago. @.@

okay anw, ideas presentation today. when i present, then i thought that the footsteps like very extra. -.- and the tcher like very uninterested in my Lampo. =.=

alright thats all for now. because theres a lot going on this week, and if i blog everything, it'll be a bedtime story.

MOB CA1 tmr. @.@ egg egg egg egg egg.

2008-10-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

zbrush hates me. and vice versa.

i need to sort out my priorities.

i need to tell someone how unhappy i am about that.

oknitesbye.

2008-10-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

i dislike it. i dont like that too. oh yes, and that as well.

i bet one day, when i browse through my archives, i wont rmb a single thing that i mentioned above. HAH. unless i write it down somewhere, which im obviously, lazy to. HAHA.

i seriously dont like my phone. i love the theme (which i made myself), but the phone sucks in term of its battery life. it can last only 2 days. im dead serious. thats why you can expect me to reply your smses only at night sometimes (because im out in the afternoon when my phone died), or you can expect to hear something like "the M1 subscriber that you have called is currently unavailable. please try again later. goodbye!". -.- i'll prolly beg mama to get another phone for me, while this phone is still worth some dollars. HAHAHA. hopefully they'll agree. :D (which i think they wont. HAH.)

alright. im gng settle some class tee stuffs now. and then go sleep already. NITES! :D

2008-10-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

i got an idea for IDEAS already! WOOOOO. a pretty lame idea though. HAH.

anw, im totally drained out this week. really really tired. i've asked a total of 17 people for replacement. and then Iris said "Np :)". i was kinda stunned. for a moment i though "Np" is a short form for "Nope". BUT ANW, I FOUND A REPLACEMENT. i promise i'll try to make it for duty next time! finding replacement is kinda hard. @.@

sorry but i'll be going straight home after work tmr. i got stuffs to do.

once bitten, twice shy. i dont know if what i have experienced can be described using that, but i really dont know if i can believe what you've said to me before. and so i kinda find it hard to believe somethings that people say now. its purely reflex.

thanks delphine. you made my day(night). :')

2008-10-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Just for laughs. HEHEHE.

SOMEONE REPLACE ME THIS SATURDAY PLEASE! @.@

i need to reschedule what i have planned. sigh. and plan my schedule for next week. im gna chiong home tmr after work. i wanna finish my tutorial and etc.

and i have an idea for IDEAS. but it lacked practicality. natalie said i'll get zero for practicality, and i think so too. HAHA.

and lastly,

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KOR!
Take good care of yourself yeah.
Many many misses. <3<3<3>

2008-10-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

school today was kinda (EHEHEHE). replace the bracket with something suitable. :D

i think i was kinda noisy today. esp during stats. i believe something is wrong with me. sorry people. i'll rmb to wire myself up properly tmr. :D

I LOVE SERENA'S MACBOOK. ESP HER WEBCAM. damn fun i tell you. we (jenny, melissa, natalie, serena and me) were playing with it during stats, and we took many many photos. HOHOHO. go to natalie's blog to check some of them out yeah. :D

I HAVE PLENTY OF THINGS TO DO THIS WEEK. theres a presentation due next week, and theres a CA next week too. time. really. flies. i gotta find a replacement for duty this saturday quick! @.@

and i guess i will need to bring my planner to school everyday with me already. @.@

ALRIGHT. i'll do MOB tutorial while waiting for bestie's sms.

that beautiful mistake, thats fading away.